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Fitness Failure

Well, I jumped on the scale and saw numbers I had never seen in my entire life (which was not a good thing). The scale topped out at 244.6, but when I first stepped on it errored out. Not what I wanted to see, but I’m not really surprised given the lack of exercise and my crappy eating habits. This, as I sit here eating Reese’s pieces peanut butter cookies and write this blog. Those who know me will agree I have one hell of a sweet tooth and once it kicks in I find it hard to control. Throw in anything peanut butter and I’m done for.

 

Speaking with the wife, I’ve decided to put down the treats and try to start a healthier lifestyle. I’ll be visiting the gym soon, a place I haven’t seen in over a year. Anytime Fitness is my gym of choice, I love the fact that I can go anytime I get the urge and not worry about it being closed. They also have been offering group classes and boot camps, which I totally should be taking advantage of but I haven’t. Even after acknowledging my need for fitness and obvious signs, I’ve seen I still can’t find the motivation to go.

 

At what point do I give in and go? How do I gain back my motivation? Will working out with the wife prove to be the motivation I need? I guess only time will tell.

Better late than never

 

Better late than never has been my philosophy as This Crazy Life of Mine has kicked into full affect. Corporate projects, budgets, new hires and drama seem to have taken control of my life and it’s been a downward spiral ever since. I’ve grabbed firmly on the controls and started to pull myself out of this downward spiral and take back control of my life. With most of my projects winding down I can now start to concentrate on the things I love to do and work on the items that seem to cause drama as of late. The major toll this has had on me personally would have to be fitness, having zero desire to workout, run or even walk, which will surely affect me on the scale this week. That and the fact that my water intake is down and my soda and sweets intake are on the rise will definitely be a factor.

With my one major project coming to an end soon I’ll be able to work semi normal hours and hopefully decompress. It’s always fun to work on projects that seem to have little direction and constantly changing on the fly because of this. Also being into budget season for 2014 makes it that much more interesting. Trying to figure out your 2014 is always fun….. especially when your still in 2013.

Fitness will be the next item to take control of again and it should prove to be interesting. I’m hoping to get in a run when I get home and maybe even sit down to finish that workout routine that’s collecting dust on my desk at home. It needs to be finished and implemented but it’s hard when you get home and you’re physically and mentally drained. I do think the most interesting thing will be when I finally decide to go play paintball again. It’s now been over two months since I’ve played and about four weeks since I’ve even held or worked on one of my paintball guns. Paintball was an avid part of my life and I was consistently going every two weeks but I’ve had to stop as it was taking a toll on me mentally and has really had me questioning if and when I’ll return. One thing for sure is no matter what I’ll always be a Paintballer4life, but it doesn’t mean it will consume all of my life. Paintball is my passion, my release and a sport I’ve grown to love in the years of playing, but comes with its baggage just as any other things in life we love.

What’s caused your life to go into a downward spiral? At what point did you grab the controls and pull out of that nose dive before crashing?

Land of Confusion

If I could sum up my life this past week “Land of Confusion” would pretty much tell it all. With everything needing extra attention and time I never even had enough time to blog. The week held many twists and turns that would prove to test me both physically and mentally. The week started off with a bang as it’s the end of the quarter and that means quarterly review time. While I went into it knowing full well what to expect, this was the one and only item that didn’t throw me for a loop.

Wednesday the wife and I went to the Memorial Causeway to continue her training for her upcoming half marathon next weekend. Confusion seemed to set in as I was barely able to complete the same route that I’ve been doing forever. The past few weeks show continuous progress for both of us, yet I feel as if I’m going backwards with the way I felt this past week of running.

Next up on the confusion hit list is my weight. I’ve been on what feels like a rollercoaster for the past few months. The constant ups and downs have really started to take a toll on me as it’s slowly starting to kill my motivation. I have no idea as to why this is happening , but I feel as if some sort of change needs to happen in order to help break this vicious cycle I appear to be in with my weight.

The last item on my list is paintball, see I haven’t been able to play for almost two months now and I was able to go Saturday to play which proved to be fun. Plagued by chronic problems from a simple O-ring to a non-functional marker where the highlights of my weekend. Don’t get me wrong I was still able to have fun, but now I find myself sitting here now needing to perform repairs. I’m sure it’ll take an hour or so to perform the repairs, but still an hour of time I could be doing so many other things.

What was the worst week you’ve ever had? What made it so bad?